This post about imagination and reactions to your own imagination could just as easily be a rant.  However it also fits in very well with using your imagination to get what you want and used wrongly, to get exactly what you didn’t want.

It’s a very simple example. My girlfriend is obsessed with the fact that I might leave her. She’s very jealous and evidently her self esteem is much lower than I had thought.

She continually imagines my leaving her over any little thing. Always imagines the worst and then gets very angry when the worst comes true. That’s what makes this relevant to this mind blog instead of a rant on another blog.

I wouldn’t mind if I did something to cause these things but all are in her imagination. I don’t go anywhere without her unless she sends me to the store for something. She is perfectly free to look at my cell phone calls and my cell phone bills which detail all calls.

I have a bad case of emphysema after smoking for 52 years and I’m not interested in all the drama of messing around nor am I interested in the physical problems that the extra stress brings. When I’m in a relationship, I’m in it. I don’t cheat or lie to my significant other.

However her baggage says that’s not true and for every little thing she always imagines the very worst. She wants to spend the rest of her life with me but her imagined slights and her imagining misdeeds on my part are pushing me farther and farther away. Exactly what she is afraid of and exactly what she doesn’t want.

She’d been gone for a couple of hours the other day and when she came back I was talking to my 61 yr old cousin in South Dakota. We’d been talking for about an hour so when my GF came in I told my cousin I had to go because my GF was home and I wanted to talk with her.

Lol, she had a fit, demanded to know who I was talking to, accused me of lying and refused to look at the phone or hit redial. Her reason, sneaky people could fake all of that. Funny, cause when she came in she saw me lay the phone down and never touch it again so it would have been hard to fake anything.

So here we are in the middle of what’s now a 3 day arguement and I’m thinking of where I want to go next and whether I really want to stay here and put up with the BS. I won’t for much longer as you can’t argue with peoples imagination.

Now if I could just get her to change all of her negative thoughts into positive thoughts she would get exactly what she wants and what I used to want. I’m sure you’ve heard of self fulfilling prohpecies and that’s what this is turning out to be.

She’s worried I’ll leave and rather than doing things to ensure I won’t she keeps doing he exact things that are pushing me away. So in the end she will be right and I’ll leave.

Had she put as much effort and imagination into positive things and being sure I’d stay and we’d have a happy life together that’s what would happen.

 Just a small example of how your mind can make you miserable or make you happy. It’s your mind and that makes it your choice. Positive or negative. Doesn’t matter, which ever one you think about most will be what you probably end up with.